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Insomniac? No, I’m a vampire… a light sleeper, a day dreamer, a wishful thinker, a tree hugger…
I like simple thoughts, coherent thoughts, positive thoughts, happy thoughts…
This 3am, my thoughts are messy, jumbled, incoherent, confused. Unhappy. But with no tangible link, no way through the maze, it’s an unfathomable mess of depth without perception. It’s keeping me awake. That in itself is not unusual, I’m often awake at 3am, without my night time waking I sometimes think my days would make less sense.
But I don’t like this scrambled mess in my head. It’s like someone opened all my neat little boxes and emptied them all together.
Because there are things I can’t work out and I can’t understand and that frustration is eating away at my slightly archaic brain filing system.
Logic I have, it’s unique and straight forward, uncomplicated, it doesn’t like messy thinking, illogical thinking. Meh…
It’s time to let the mess go, let it drift with the clouds and become a distant thought, a glimpse of gold at the end of the rainbow which was never meant to be found. Not by me anyway. I’ll hold my own dreams, there’s never been enough about me to hold someone else’s, not if they are not able to. – Also known affectionately as, it’s time for a brew, a cup of tea solves everything even a messy scrambled brain at 3am.
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©️ Juliette Turrell
Juliette Turrell 
I can relate to this! My brain has a similar filing system. And it’s haunted by an imp that likes overturning everything.
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My Imp likes saying really raw filthy things at the wrong moment to the wrong people. It’s a full time job keeping my Imp in check 😆
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Ours must be related. But it’s kids fun. Perhaps we should not get them together though lol
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3am is the time when the mind is most vulnerable. It helps create brilliant pieces like this one as well ❤
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Yes, my insomnia poems seem to increase weekly 🤣
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Logic is only good for working with things you feel sure of. Night time is the right time for thoughts to get scrambled and find their own ways of connecting and making new sense. It’s less troubling if this happens when we are asleep though. This reminds me of the saying “everybody wants to go to Heaven, but nobody wants to die.” We don’t want to surrender ourselves to confusion, but we want to reach the point where things make more sense – a point that we can only reach by sailing into the unknown. And that’s the sea were poets cast their nets.
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I love this comment so much 💕💕💕
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❤ Yes I agree a cup of tea solves everything. (I've a mug of herbal next to me right now!!)
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Loving the glimpse into your vampiric mind, gorgeous.
How fortunate we found each other. 😘
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